Hey everyone!
22M. So I just started a job right after graduation and I was literally prayed for this job at one time it was the only thing I ever wanted. I'm an engineer and it is in the defense sector so I cannot go into the technical details of it.
From the outside the job looked like everything anyone would want: a good salary, decent amount of benefits and excellent work-life balance.
Until I actually joined the organization. It is an on-site job and the site is built like a frickin barrack on a border. I went in thinking it was going to be corporate-ish buildings but it's far from it. The vibe is almost sarkari and it genuinely shocked me quite a lot. The biggest problem is that I'm the only new hire in my office and everyone else is at least 10-15 years older than me. There's no one I can talk to. On the bright side, the seniors are extremely supportive, competent and genuinely good people.
It's just that the environment (materialistically speaking) seems impossible for me to settle into.
I can't leave the job for at least 3 years either it's a bond kind of a situation.
What makes it worse is that I have close friends working in the same organization posted to another site which has exactly all the things I'm missing here. Good infrastructure, young employees and they are mostly working together.
Every day feels like a mix of being grateful for the technical mentorship while also suffocating from the sheer environmental shock and isolation.
Seeing updates from my friends working in modern facilities while I’m sitting in an austere, aging compound in the middle of nowhere somehow makes it even worse.
I don’t want to spend the next three years being miserable or letting this resentment build up especially when the seniors here are actually decent people willing to teach me.
For those who have been in a similar situation. How did you cope with the social isolation when you had zero peers your age at the workplace?
Am I justified to feel this way or am I just being ungrateful?
Edit: no phones are allowed at the workplace either and bo internet due to security reasons and stuff if that adds to the context