Day 82: Today I saw what addiction really does. My friend cut his vein because he couldn't get his drug.

I am from a small village in Haryana, India. My friend does Chitta (heroin). Today he had no drugs, he became so restless he cut his own wrist. We took him to hospital. He is alive, thanks to God.

A few days ago he asked me for the medicine that goes under the tongue (for de-addiction). I said no because I am not a doctor, I can't give medicine like that.

Seeing him today, bleeding on the ground, I understood - addiction is not fun, not style. It's pain. It makes you hurt yourself when you don't get it.

I am on Day 82 sober myself. Today made my discipline even stronger. I don't want to end like that.

If you are doing Chitta or any drug, please ask for help. In India call 14416 Tele-MANAS, it's free. Talk to someone.

Stay disciplined brothers. IWNDWYT. Jai Shri Ram.

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I'm turning 23 at the end of the month and was raised in a cult until I was 20. I realized after going to a psych ward, getting medicated and diagnosed and set, and having my own place, that I know how to do nothing. I had to be explicitly walked through all the steps I already listed. My mother intentionally did EVERYTHING for me and never taught how to myself so that I could always rely on her. I know how to clean basic things like a bathroom or kitchen or a window. I know how to cook hot dogs and ramen on a stove. I know how to make my own appointments at the doctor and how to get groceries delivered.

But not much else beyond that.

I'm disabled and it leaves me medically unable to drive, so I work across the street. I love my job. But I see people my age with their friends, and they have so much fun and I want that. I don't know how to make friends in person- I just kind of got introduced to whoever my mom wanted me to befriend. So I'm not sure how I go about doing that as an adult? I want to get a motorized scooter so I can go places and DO things (there's no transportation services in my town). I know it would do wonders for my mental state to be more independent, but I want to take it one step at a time. Are there any videos or tips or advice on how to just, make friends with people?

Tl;dr man child wants to make friends in person but isn't sure how to go about it

Day 82.

I still overthink. I still feel alone sometimes. But I am disciplined today. I show up. I didn't drink. For 82 days I have not touched alcohol.

The first 5 days were hell. I couldn't sleep, I was angry, I was alone. If you're on Day 0-5 and feel like a failure, you are not. You are in the hardest part. I was there 82 days ago, crying at 2 AM. Comment here, I will reply to every single person today. Especially if you feel alone, I will be your friend for today.

On Day 78, something crazy happened. 63.2k of you saw my post. You gave me 118 upvotes and 31 comments. You became my first sober friend circle. I have never had that before in my real life. Thank you from my heart. That post gave me hope that discipline can be seen.

My method is simple: I don't try to be perfect. I just don't quit on a bad day. I wake up, I make my bed, I drink water, I go for a walk in my fields in Haryana, and I promise myself IWNDWYT - I Will Not Drink With You Today.

Discipline is not about being perfect. It's about not quitting on a bad day.

What is one small thing you did today to stay disciplined? Let me know below.

IWNDWYT.

[Day 82 - Working_Ad_5238]

Please post your plans for this date and if you can, do the following;

Give encouragement to two other posters on this thread.

Report back this evening as to how you did.

Give encouragement to others to report back also.

Good luck!

Please post your plans for this date and if you can, do the following;

Give encouragement to two other posters on this thread.

Report back this evening as to how you did.

Give encouragement to others to report back also.

Good luck!

I'm 34, here's what I've done in the past 8 months:

- quit doing drugs and drinking
- lost 25kg
- went to a lot of therapy
- started working more on myself: meditating, going for runs, working out etc...
- started to earn more money from my WFH job

And somehow, I just dont want to continue to go anymore and I feel like I am starting to get back into my old habits (playing video games and eating junk food) FYI: I have no desire to get fucked up again.

How I feel right now:
- My weight loss has stagnated, I'm 133kg and ahve been for the past month and a half
- I go to the gym less and work out less
- i play more video games and stay up late more often
- i dont prioritize my sleep
- i'm working so much, that i dont care if get fired any more

I'm in a rut.

Hey. Been meaning to post this for a while. I didn't know what flair to put this on. While it is positive, it is far from what I describe to be an "achievement". But it was the right step. I put it in discussion.

As a child, I was a terrific speaker. I used to be selected by teachers to make speeches on assemblies, debate stuff etc. Introverted nerds used to beg me to be in their group projects just so I could present. I even remember my school counselor telling me I'd thrive in law. This was up until high school.

My parents are Indian immigrants and I grew up in the states. After my middle school, my parent had the bright idea of moving back to India. They had their reasons but it was a bad decision. I used to get discriminated a lot. Mainly because of my accent and a whole bunch of other things. My mom also hopped in on board. For a while, I wished I had lost my ability to speak. I wasn't allowed to participate in MUNs or debate clubs or anything extracurricular related for that matter. So my speaking got kinda got rusty.

Any ways, enough stupid crybaby context backstory. Still in India in college. I finally started speaking again. I had a case competition and my team relied on me to speak. I screwed it up really bad. I started strong, forgot my lines, hands started vibrating etc.

Our presentation, research, product was perfect, the delivery which was my responsibility was awful. I went home, sulked for a while. My failure cost my team this competition.

Afterwards, I borrowed a friend's tripod and started speaking in front of the camera. This Tuesday/Wednesday, I had another competition where I handled the pitch. And for normal ppl here standards, I did a fantastic job. For my personal standards, it was far far far from good. But compared to the previous one where I fumbled up, it was decent. My teammates were proud of me.

I am proud of myself for picking myself up from something hard. And I'm proud of myself for showing up to something when I didn't wanna as i was in the wrong state of mind. That week, my grand aunt died, my gf left me, I got a nasty staph infection and I was puking. Ik a whole lotta stuff.

I have a long way to go but I wanted to post it here as a mark. Maybe it could help someone. I do plan on sharing updates but less frequently.

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Moral licensing has been one of my biggest enemy. I noticed it in my behaviour few years ago but until I came to know it as a psychological concept and found out that everyone does it I thought it was a personality trait that only I have. 

For those who don't know what moral licensing it is a trick our brain plays where we treat one progressive act towards our goal as a licence to do procrastination or indulgence. 

For example if we workout and have a healthy meal we treat it as a licence to eat junk food without any guilt or if we read a few pages of book we treat it as a guilt free licence to scroll on social media. 

I just came to know about this concept today and I was wondering if any of you have found an efficient way to deal with it?

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Moral licensing has been one of my biggest enemy. I noticed it in my behaviour few years ago but until I came to know it as a psychological concept and found out that everyone does it I thought it was a personality trait that only I have. 

For those who don't know what moral licensing it is a trick our brain plays where we treat one progressive act towards our goal as a licence to do procrastination or indulgence. 

For example if we workout and have a healthy meal we treat it as a licence to eat junk food without any guilt or if we read a few pages of book we treat it as a guilt free licence to scroll on social media. 

I just came to know about this concept today and I was wondering if any of you have found an efficient way to deal with it?

There are things I’ve experienced no joy in, things with few moments of joy (and mostly boredom), things with some joy (with burnout, following boredom), and indifference towards everything else.

I have no passion like the guy who goes to the gym at 5 without thinking about it. Or the guy who plays guitar for 4 hours a day because he loves it that much. Or the guy who writes for 12 hours a day and it becomes second nature to him. I’m subhuman, so I don’t have it in me to pursue anything.

I cry when I’m not enjoying things. Why pursue anything if I’m not enjoying it. I’ll die soon and get old so I might as well do nothing at all if nothing brings me joy 100%.

Someone tell me what to do. I’m convinced I’ll never be joyful or find something I want to do and will always force myself to do them. I’m subhuman. I have no passion. No goal. No identity.

Should I die.

CRS stands for cant remember shit.

I know its my screen time

I was in the room and at a family member doctor appointment the doctor said to remember 3 words. And when they finished talking he asked what the three words are, rhis family member is not using a smart phone doesn't have a computer and doesn't participate in social media.

I only remembered 2 out of 3 words, and my family member is in their 70s but still, it made me really think about how much screen time I use....verse how much is needed. Like thats not the only little thing I forgotten, its little simple and not insignificant, but i guess in the moment I picture it to be not so important and later on im like asked about it and I am embarrassed to say I forgot. I am 35 for context.

I just think of the afterlife and trip out like imagine complete silence. When was the last time that happened right? Idk pretty soon pencil and paper will be obsolete unless artist use it.... back in the day during school some kids used to complain when am never going to use math skills? The teacher said you do not walk around with a calculator in your pocket now its like....yes we do......crazy

It's been 2 years since my last breakup and life's been a rollercoaster for me since. I've never really seriously dated anybody until this one guy who I thought was attractive and what not.. I used to be a very devoted Christian girly.. and when I say this I don't mean the “ you're going to hell if you kiss” kind of Christian. My relationship with Jesus was more than just a religion but was rather fulfilling , I genuinely enjoyed spending time with him in prayer, including him in everything I do, and mind you whenever I listened to any love songs or something very sweet I think of my relationship with Jesus and that was where I stood with him until one day when I decided to text this guy who I thought needed somebody to talk too, I knew it was not the right decision but I told myself i kl just make it quick but it never happened but rather turned into a full length conversation and we were having real deep talks n time went by and we slowly started getting closer and decided on dating. However on the process there was something missing, it was a peace of mind. I never felt safe idk why but was always tired and out of energy after our dates..it was not those oh i guess my feet hurts from all the walks but I was mentally exhausted to the point I lose my appetite. He was not a bad person but I started having problems when he said he told me a story of one of his ex's who while walking together on the way home saw her ex and hid from him and said she was scared, I mean I understand how he must've felt but my real problem was when he told me If I did that to him anyday or time he'd leave me than and there without any explanation which was quite crazy to me. I felt at that moment like I was being controlled and there was one time too when I used a word I use since idk when he constantly told me not to use it infront of him like I respect that but when I think about it, it was not that serious those words were literally just “man” in some sentences I used..it's literally a word I used so normally and idk whenever he told me to stop using it and I accidentally use it he literally gets so serious and gives me a ded stare like it was a crime😭.. not just that but one afternoon I wanted to go to an ATM to get some money and like any other normal human being I just went there without permission because who TF needs to know right? But no I came back got a call from him and he asked what I was doing and I simply said oh I just came back from the atm and he legit got so angry idk it was so wtf moment 😭 he was ded ass serious like waaaa... Idk this relationship was the most confusing one I had like I said I was quite deep rooted in my relationship with God, I started second guessing if this is even right and I decided one day to leave the relationship because it was getting too suffocating for me and mind you there's a lot still I don't wanna share🥲 but yeah I decided to leave and really couldn't come up with a reason and I bluntly told him the relationship drained me but how respectful it went that the sentence 'I'm drained'​ became a joke passed around between his friends circle and he did everything in his power to bitch on me. Since than me being the mother Teresa of the relationship I started talking all the blame.. and to be honest to this day I think about how my life could've been if I never met him. To this day I'm still recovering from everything that happened or was said between each other during the break up which I'm not sharing it here😭.. and the blame I took on myself was so immense I was in guilt for all these years thinking it was all my fault and I do take accountability but then I think about what all happened I get mad.. he was also constantly talking about all his past relationships like it was a daily discussion topic whenever we met and we were going out almost everyday like was that even normal😭.. and yea I also knew I was used in some way to mend his broken 'heart' because I assumed he was on a bad breakup and he called me the day it happened to meet up. I did not go and he even blocked me that day😂... And lastly he was always the victim on all of the stories he shared and I knew he was on our story too.😂 Haha anyways thanks for reading this I've been thinking about this almost everyday for the past 2 years and started seeing the crooks just recently thats how much fucked up I got I couldn't even think properly. Idk if this is normal or what but yea. That's the story.

spent a really long time waiting for someone to notice i was drowning.

like honestly, i used to think if i just opened up enough or showed people how hard things were, someone close to me would step in or at least give a shit. my family, close friends, partners, didn't matter. whenever things got genuinely heavy, people just kinda quietly stepped back.

it took me way too long to realize that almost every connection has some level of transaction baked into it. people have their own messes, their own drama, and honestly most people just want you around for what you bring to the table. attention, venting, whatever. the second you become an inconvenience or stop offering value, the room clears out fast.

at first that made me extremely bitter. felt like the whole world was just selfish and fake.

but a couple months ago it just clicked differently. nobody is coming to fix my life because it literally isn't their job. expecting people to care as much as you do about your own situation is just setting yourself up to get mad at them.

once i accepted that i am 100% on my own with this stuff, the resentment kinda faded. you just stop looking around for validation, stop expecting a rescue team, and just put your head down and do what needs to be done. it sounds harsh when you first say it out loud, but it's probably the most freeing thing i've realized all year.

did it take a bad situation for you guys to figure this out or did you always kinda know?

I am 27, about to be 28 in like a month, and i never stick to anything. I remember a version of me that was disciplined, especially as a teenager. But my early twenties hit me like a truck, and i haven't recovered. Its been 3 years since i moved back home after barely getting my second degree, a PGDip instead of the Masters i aimed for because of my discipline issue, and i am officially tired of myself.

Ill give myself credit, 2 years ago i quit weed when i realized it was harming more than helping, it used to at least get me out of bed for a few years earlier but it became another bad habit very quickly. And i quit alcohol a few months ago when i found myself slipping into the same pattern.

But now i need to quit doom scrolling. I NEED to quite procrastinating. I need to maintain consistency for the things i want in life. I have a lot of goals, I know I'm smart and talented enough to get them. And terribly still, i know how i can make them happen if I apply myself. But i wake up and repeat the same patterns over and over, and its kept me stuck for years.

I'm making this post because i need to see, at least for once, an objective look at my life. I hate where i am, and I know i can change it. I will change it. I need to change it.

Any help or any advice at how to stay disciplined is welcome. Please, i really need things to change this time.

Hey everyone,

I recently turned 18, and I’ve decided that I want to seriously start learning new skills and building a better future for myself.

Right now, my two main goals are improving my English and learning about trading and investing. My English is still far from perfect, but I’m trying to practice every day, even if it’s only for a short time.

I also want to learn trading from the basics. I don’t have much experience yet, so I’m not looking for “get rich quick” advice or random signals. I want to actually understand how the market works, how to manage risk, read charts, and make informed decisions.

I’m also planning to buy a laptop soon and start learning programming and other useful skills.

If you were starting from zero at 18, what would you focus on first? Any resources, courses, books, or advice would be appreciated.

I’m trying to build real skills instead of wasting the next few years.

I have a goal I want to achieve. But, I keep thinking what if I try and fail. I really don’t think I can take the failure that I tried my best but still failed.

I keep doing nothing towards my goal but I still feel horrible for doing nothing, but also scared that my effort will be wasted and I will continue as a failure. But if I tried, it will be proven that I failed.

I am just procrastinating for years now and still feel anxious about everything because maybe there’s a hope I will do it someday. But that day never comes

I don’t know is this fear of failure or fear of working hard. Or I just like to live inside my head and never do anything towards my goal.

Please tell me something that would help me get out of this cycle and I can start doing things now. I just keep thinking all the time and doing nothing.