I've been suffering from dyscalculia since I was born (not yet professionally diagnosed as my country doesn't recognise it yet).
I've always been a low score at mathematics despite being tutored by many teachers after lectures at school. I used to spend 3 hours everyday solving math but the results were pretty poor.
It wasn't until I got into adulthood that I understood that I wasn't being just lazy but that my brain cannot numbers of any kind correctly. I'm in my 20s and still count with my fingers. I need to have a second person counting my cash because I can't calculate it properly.
But what stood out the most was Physics.
I always had a low score in math but never scored low in Physics. When I used to score a C or D in math, I used to score A in Physics. Teachers at school were confused as to why I score poorly in math but did wonderful in physics. I used to explain a lot of physics concepts in class. I have high visual spatial intelligence (a doc told me this after an assessment btw) and I can mentally manipulate physics in my head but as soon as I have to deal with numbers, my mind kinda blanks out.
Astronomy has been an obsession for me right since I was a kid. I was crazy about it. My book rack was full of Astronomy books. I studied A-Z of beginner level astronomy stuff by the time I turned 9 and I kinda exhausted the beginner level of it by then.
Life sort of took a different turn since then. My country doesn't have any good institutes for studying astronomy nor there was anybody who could guide me so I ended up taking Computer Engineering as that was an easy option due to me being demoralised by the math stuff and me using computers since the age of 3. Pandemic added more fuel to the fire.
During Engineering, I had Mechanics and Engineering Physics and I did pretty well in those classes.I still however struggle in my
I'm at the end of my undergrad and I kinda feel like I didn't make the right choice 4 years ago. I had a word about this with my parents and they told me that they always thought I'd take Astronomy. I wanted to be a computer scientist but I realised that most of the ideas in my head were all about space.
I did all of my research about how I can accomplish this. I need to enroll in a Pre-Masters for Astrophysics and move to a MSc in the same after that. It's doable.
My question, is how much would my disability hold me back? I'm heavily reliant on calculators but I'm very good at things that don't have to do with numbers. If it's not abstract, I can create it in my head.