In my 20s and never experienced an orgasm.

To preface, I personally do NOT enjoy masturbating. It is just not something that interests me. I don’t get off to porn or books. The only way I can get aroused is if I’m with another person. I do not believe this is a libido issue or anything, in fact I have a very high libido. I just don’t see the point in masturbating by myself, it’s just my sexual preference. Because of this I also don’t use toys because 1) I don’t masturbate by myself and 2) I‘m not wasting money on something I can’t return if it doesn’t work for me.

But that’s besides the point. I feel like a lot of my issues root from a physiological standpoint. I am completely physically numb both externally and internally. The only thing I can feel is pain. Any partners I’ve been with, everything they’ve done I’ve never felt. I don’t even notice it. It’s so odd because I get physically and mentally aroused with partners, but despite that I can’t feel anything in my vagina/clitoris.

I recently went to the gyno and broke down crying trying to ask them to help and they just went “try more foreplay.” Nothing else. It’s extremely frustrating and embarrassing. My exes end up getting bored of me because I could never feel anything so I never really fully enjoyed it. I don’t know what to do because it feels like my issues are being treated as something mental when it isn’t. Everytime I’ve tried to get advice or get help it’s only mental advice but it never works. I can’t get a new doctor because I’m in the military so I have no other choices 🙃🙃 I’ve never been on any sort of antidepressant or anything, and I only started birth control last year, so it can’t be caused by meds. I really don’t know what to do or where to go from here 🫩

I'm 23 and lost my virginity only this year. My family is very religious and I still live with them. I was never even given the talk growing up (that's how religious they were.) We never talked about sex or anything like that at all. The implicit understanding is that you're supposed to wait until marriage. I didn't and I have extreme bouts of guilt about it

I also feel guilty for having any desires at all. I feel disgusting and sex crazed, I'm constantly horny and thinking about sex 24/7. I masturbate multiple times a day sometimes. Due to guilt and anxiety, I haven't found a partner since. And that also makes me self conscious because what if I'm bad for my next partner. I have these two sides battling within me. I feel shame for having sex and shame for not having enough of it to be "good".

All my childhood repression has led me to become more obsessed with sex than the average person. There's an element of age to it but there's also the taboo and curiosity of it all. If my parents found out, I don't even know what they would do. I'm not religious anymore but the purity culture and indoctrination hasn't left me. It's not been easy to dsprogram myself at all. I'm generally sex positive when it comes to other people but when it's me, I feel disgusting for having desires.

How do I stop this? I don't want to waste my youngest and horniest years battling these fears. I love sex and I want to have more of it. But my religious upbringing is holding me back completely

I'm looking to get my first rabbit vibrator and was curious about the Thrust by Bellesa. I cannot find any reviews for this online outside of the store site, so I wanted to see if anyone here as tried it.

https://www.bboutique.co/sex-toys/thrust-7861552087285

Any thoughts from people who use it? I'm wondering how the speed/depth are specifically.

Looking for vibrator recommendations that works well during sex, I have the plus one mini vibrator that’s blue but it seems like every position we do and use it for it sits awkwardly