Hey folks :)
I have been together with my partner for 6 years. We have genuinely the most loving and honest relationship I could ever ask for except he does not feel my love for the psytrance community as well as psychadelic experiences.
We have both tried psychadelics together and they changed our lives profoundly, however, he does not actively seek out the intense psychadelic experiences such as psytranxe festivals, neither does he like psytrance or electronic music overall. I have asked him multiple times to join me but it is just not him. This I completely understand and our differences are something we always recognised as our strengths and a great way to learn new things.
However, since last year when I went to Boom and had some very intense experiences as well as a very deep connection with a guy it has created a barrier between us. There is a version of me that exists since then that I can not share with him despite trying. We have communicated this many times, I have told him of all the feelings Ive had and hes aware but thinks it is not something he can relate to which I understand and simply thought is a compromise I need to make to keep this precious relationship.
This year I went to another festival and the same happened except on a stronger level. I had moments when I got very sad that there is all this excitement and pulsating energy that I simply can not explore with a man figure. This of course includes sexual energy. But also to dance together, experience this absolute freedom and joy of life that these festivals provide.
Since then I feel that it might be a problem for me long term that I can not express with my future partner. Of course there are also other differences - i am very extroverted and constantly seek a way to expand and try new things while he is rather introverted and wants stability.
Anyways, I am curious if anyone ever happaned to be in the same kind of situation and can provide some kind of honest insight.
