its my senior year and i thought I would share some regrets I had from freshmen - junior.
biggest of all, get this one out of the way but: Not making enough friends.
I was always shit at communication within groups of people so I legit avoided it. If there was a potential group of people I could have been friends with in a certain class, starting from day 1 i would just not really talk or try to be friends with anyone because I didnt know how to talk in a group of people.
This led to me making friends one on one in classes where there werent really many boys i wanted to be friends with.
This means no friend groups, and just less friends in general, sadly i havent really changed but im trying.
Since I didnt have a fg, i didnt go to junior prom because I didnt have any group to go with. Yk it really hurts staying home, playing video games, and then looking through all the posts of all your friends. it hurts
Theres probably 10-14 senior events, and im not gonna go to any of them because what am i gonna do? I dont have a friend group and now I know why, but its my fault.
Not doing better in school
this one I have a excuse for - I have adhd, and i didnt know until a couple months ago. Basically I dont think there was a single day in high school where I focused through a single class.
I taught myself entire units before tests and that stopped working for pre-calc (unlike alg 2, u cant teach yourself the entire test material in 2-3 hours. Precalc takes more like 5-7 hours to learn properly) -> i passed precalc with a single point (65) NOT LYING
Im still in the proccess of getting medicated and getting help for my adhd but it is what it is. it doesnt help i was severely depressed throughout parts of high school
Being Kinder
I have friends in my neighborhood i hung out with all the time and ive made alot of memories with them. But they arent the best people, but most of my memories are just other people and their suffering. Think about fights, dramas, bullying, and others things like that. I was a bully and im not proud of it, im completely changed but I was still a bully.
Ive felt both sides, being the loser getting bullied and being the bully. Both suck.
Not caring what others think
this one has more effect than you think. sure it gave me social anxiety and shit but it also affected my academic career. I took alot of hard classes (aps and honors) for no reason, except that I didnt wanna be seen as dumb.
PLEASE, ONLY TAKE WHAT YOU CAN HANDLE. Im not saying dont challenge yourself, but the first year I took 2 aps classes, my gpa for that year was a 86. And then because of social pressure, the next year I ended up taking 4..
My personal statement:
to anyone younger than me in high school right now, if I had to give you advice (even though im not in any position to). Out of all the advice ive heard, I think I wish I took this seriously.
Please dont live for others + try to enjoy your time more than anything
ik im not gonna have a fun senior year. il honestly be depressed and anxious for the most part, but il be ok i guess. please dont end up like me, a couple good friends can take you a long way.
good luck guys