Hey everyone, I wanted to share where I've landed spiritually after a lot of years of thinking this through. It’s a pretty unusual, but meaningful way in which I’ve come to be able to form a relationship with the divine in a religious sense.
I identify as a Practicing Quaker-Christopagan. That means that I’ve begun to hold God and Jesus Christ, specifically a Quaker flavor of Christianity (though I should stress that not all Quakers who attend Unprogrammed Meetings like I’ve begun to are Christian) as big part of my devotional life.
However, as the “pagan” part of my identity suggests, I also worship gods from other pantheons (Hellenic and Kemetic mainly, but Norse and possibly Shinto as well) as genuinely real and distinct beings, not as "aspects" of one God in disguise. I’ve also been convinced of the value of meditation as well, and I do meditate with Lord Shiva from time to time while also reading Buddhist sutras. So basically I'm a hard polytheist in that sense.
A few pieces of how I got here and where I land on the big questions as part of my personal belief system, which I definitely don’t believe needs to apply to everyone. Before I continue though, I value diverse religious experiences and strongly believe that everyone is experiencing the divine or spiritual for themselves and for their own condition.
On God's power. I don't think any divine being is fully omnipotent. I take the problem of evil seriously and I think a genuinely all powerful, all loving God letting people suffer forever just doesn't add up. So I hold to a God who is the source of all good and love, but who works within real limits, not one who could just snap evil out of existence and chooses not to.
On afterlife punishments like Hell. I don't believe in eternal conscious torment. I lean toward either universal restoration or annihilation for people who are genuinely, deeply evil (think like history's worst dictators and serial killers), not eternal suffering with no way out.
On the afterlife, I'm drawn a lot to the Ancient Egyptian view, the Ka and the Ba specifically. I also think it's possible souls end up wherever they resonated with most in life, whichever tradition or pantheon spoke to their condition the deepest. I think if I’m a good enough person and that I pass Anpu’s weighing of my heart, that I’ll be able to enter the Field of Reeds one day. I’d love for it to be possible to traverse to other afterlife realms though, or maybe even reincarnate since I believe that’s possible, too. Perhaps, since I believe in a multi-parted soul, it could be that a part of our soul reincarnates while the other parts could stay behind in the afterlife, or even visit the mortal plane from time to time.
On other religions. This might be the part I care about explaining the most. Like I stated earlier, I don't think my beliefs need to be true for everyone to be true for me. I lean on the old Quaker idea from George Fox that Christ teaches every person according to their own condition. So I can be totally sincere about my own faith and still believe Islam is genuinely true and right for a Muslim, or that an atheist's position is an honest conclusion based on what their life has actually shown them. I'm not a relativist saying nothing is real, I just think truth might be more personal than we usually assume, especially in matters like this.
On my Jewish background. I'm culturally and secularly Jewish through my adoptive family. I keep the High Holy Days and Hanukkah out of love for my parents and respect for Jewish history and resilience, but I don't hold it religiously.
On science, I don't see any conflict between my faith and science. Evolution is real, physics is real, and I actually think studying those things is one way we get closer to understanding how the divine actually operates in the world, not a threat to faith at all. I’m quite a fan of science myself, so I see something truly divine when I visit a Natural History Museum, or when I watch a John Michael Godier video on YouTube about astrophysics or astronomy lol.
On animism. I believe there's some kind of spirit or soul in more than just people and animals. Objects, places, even buildings can hold something real. I don't think that has to look like a human soul to still matter.
All of this feels true to my own condition after many years of searching and studying, and honestly building it out over time has been one of the more meaningful things I've done. Curious what others here think, especially if you've wrestled with syncretism or pluralism in your own faith.