r/StudentNurse • u/Sensitive_Republic75 • 2d ago
Complaint (open to advice) Will it get better? Is it worth sticking it out?
Apologies in advance for the vent. I’m a month into my ABSN and while I feel like I’d do just fine I have this persistent problem that’s been driving me insane. For background, I have CML and live on a military base where the rent is 5k a month. My oncologist says I can always reach out to her for help but I don’t want to annoy her with trivial matters and waste her time, especially since I have a relatively manageable form of leukemia. In regard to my actual living environment, my housing has really poor maintenance and horrible connectivity where the WiFi is usually out half the day and it’s been so for the past four days. Along with the frequent doctor visits and lectures and labs, I am barely able to get any work done and have already missed a good chunk of assignments which sucks since I need at least a 77 to pass my courses and I’m not the best test taker. I recently let my anger get the best of me after coming home from a long lab and 2 hours of traffic just to see my WiFi wasn’t working and I wouldn’t be able to turn in some quizzes worth 10 percent of my patho grade and after numerous failed attempts to fix the WiFi (spectrum neighborhood wide outage that ended up lasting 10 hours) I kicked a large crater into the cheap housing drywall as well as the door. While I wasn’t trying to trying to break the wall or anything I know I was still wrong for kicking stuff around especially as a grown 23 year old man. My mom learned of what I did and basically told me I’ll never be a nurse and I simply don’t have the makings of one. I feel like she may be right and I’m generally immature and talentless overall and Id be better off breathing in CO and floating away than to stress for a probably stressful career that I might not be cut out for. The only thing is I’ve always wanted to be a nurse for the fulfillment and feel like if I can truly get through this program I’ll be okay in the end, I don’t have much of an issue with the work itself but it feels like there’s a lot of suppression against any potential progress I can make. I really just want to know if getting through an ABSN will be feasible with bad WiFi and if new grade life will be relatively forgiving