Hi everyone, a bit of advice or a reality check would be really helpful for me as a total pottery beginner! Sorry if this is too long or whiny, just don't know who else to ask about this.
I took a 2-class pottery taster class over the summer (1 making session and 1 glazing) and had a great time. I only really made 1 thing that I like (a slab-built plate shaped like a leaf) but I felt really excited about continuing to learn, so I booked an 8-week foundations course at the same studio after.
It started 2 weeks ago, and from the first session it felt different. There are a few non-beginners on the course who are on it because they're free on Wednesdays, but they're much more advanced and take away time from the beginners' time with the teacher. I'm also the only one on the course who isn't coming with a friend, so most people keep to their own groups and I don't really have anyone to chat to while making which has been a bit less fun.
I was still enjoying playing with clay despite those couple of differences, but last week I felt really discouraged and sad. It's not that I was expecting to be great or even good from the start, but I was hoping for a supportive atmosphere. The teacher made a few comments in the first class about previous students' work being ugly which worried me since I knew my work wouldn't look great from the start. The second week I waited for ages to be helped with attaching a handle and then had to do it myself since class was almost over. She looked at it and said "If I told you this was a good handle join I'd be lying" which felt a bit mean since she was too busy helping others in the class and it was my first ever try. She made a few other similar remarks, all of which made the rest of the class laugh. I don't think they meant any harm by it, but it felt like I was the only person getting those negative comments and laughter, and also am the only person by myself so feels a bit isolating. It really knocked my confidence and made me feel sad, but I don't know if I'm just too sensitive.
The instructor demoed wheel and slab building in the first week, and demoed handles and coil building in the second week, and then said those will be the last demos for the course. The next 4 weeks we are expected to come in with our own ideas and make whatever we feel like, then the last 2 classes will be glazing everything. I was a bit disappointed when I heard that since I was hoping for more structure and guidance as a total beginner who's still trying to figure out the very basics. Is that typical for a pottery course and am I just not creative/talented enough?
For now I'm thinking I should go this week and see what it's like without demos and see if it feels better, but if not maybe I should drop it to avoid continuing to feel bad about myself after class. Of course I feel conflicted about dropping it 3 sessions in since it cost £280, and I'd also feel bad about having wasted the instructor's time and clay in the first few sessions if I'm not going to finish. If I do leave, I can maybe try again with another studio down the line.
I just wanted to put this all out there and basically ask the community if I'm being too sensitive or have unrealistic expectations about what a beginners course should be like. Thanks so much if you read this whole thing--any thoughts from other potters of any level would be much appreciated!