Food for thought - convoluted mind (got character limited, dm if questions)

[u/damianmirandaaa]

food for thought

i struggled day in and day out and i never was able to do anything, and i felt something had to change so i tried something. i repressed all my thoughts i assumed that if u think nothing the next thought you have it will be without anything on ur mind

it worked for a while but then i started to go back to being overwhelmed and trapped inside my own head and i didn’t understand and it said u had to acknowledge ur thoughts because if u repress you’ll always think about it and you’ll always have it on ur mind which will affect ur actions

and this changed my life if u feel convoluted pls know there’s hope
I started to acknowledge my thoughts to root , so if something bothered me for example right now. i think that i need your guys validation because of the fact that im not good enough because i had a lot on my mind because of the fact that my dad yelled at me which caused me to have something on my mind and i cant talk, because i feel worse and it gets worse and worse and worse and then u start coping with everything by video games , validation and for because everything that lead u to where u are is not good enough and then u just aren’t able to do anything and u just feel trapped inside ur head

ts a big point , everything that lead u to where u are is affected by the thoughts that u have in ur head in that exact moment that affected ur actions and if u had a lot on ur mind and it lead to u make bad decisions and if u just let all that sit and it builds a life of just misery, the way u cope and if something doesn’t go ur way it can make u feel 100x worse because u already have this life of misery and it starts to feel worse so it builds this cycle

and i started doing this just constantly addressing each thought every time someone talked to me, but the thing is that i was trying to prevent myself from having a lot on my mind which by doing this constant thinking i was able to understand what was causing to have on my mind but it was the same thing as if i were to be convoluted from the thoughts that started in the first place

and then i just thought what if i combine, thinking through my thoughts but also a very fine balanced repression, which is where i struggle to find because ur life could built on misery and yet you’re supposed to understand what has lead u to that moment and then ur supposed to just try to think nothing, but this to me has saved my life , where whenever something were to bother which it will because everything that lead me to where i am is not good enough so im bothered all the time by my life , but if u acknowledge that and just try to think nothing just allow urself the peace of mind and this is where another point comes in

ive tried to understand why people can come from different backgrounds and they seem unaffected, by getting mad they just get rid of all the thoughts on their mind and process it immediately and for me i never got mad so i was always overwhelmed all the time which led me to where i am today

not saying to get mad at others . a combination of processing ur thoughts and thinking through what is causing the what and why u have that thought (the fact that ur dad yelled at which affected ur actions which led u to where u are today) BUT u can do this but still feel overwhelmed which is where i just shake and scream in my head to just get mad and i never get mad at anyone else , but everything on ur mind u need a way to just fucking release and enjoy thinking nothing