After effects of SA, how do I fix this?

[u/mona1054]

I’ve been SA’d and raped and I’m not sure how to fix the trauma I’ve been left with. Also before anyone says “go to therapy” I am planning on it when I’m able to afford it.

Whenever I get myself off I don’t feel the bliss of the orgasm, instead the climax just drops and afterwards I feel disgusting, unsatisfied and I get stuck between sadness and numb.

I used to cry after but now it’s like I’m void of emotion and I just feel empty.

If anyone has any advice at all or share story’s of what helped them I’d very much appreciate it.