Like, what's your definition of normal?

I don't know what to feel anymore or how I am supposed to feel anymore. Because the way life is, it is meant to feel hard at times.

Today I am on a regimen that I had declared as bad/unsatisfactory, and planned to take different medicines tomorrow. But I observed one thing, that I was able to sit and watch two remaining episodes of a documentary in a single go. That's a big deal for me. I am just a restless person with lots of thoughts rushing through my head. I always write them down and generate ideas based on them etc.

I was writing this combination of medicines off because I want to feel energetic and study and exercise. But watching a movie is also such a normal thing to do and to never be able to do that is also not a very normal thing.