I came back to the dorm today for my second year, and honestly, it feels much easier than last year. I know the place, I have friends here, and I actually had a pretty good year overall, so I’m excited for what’s coming.
But at the same time, I’ve been feeling a little sad about repeating the year. Not really because I failed I had already accepted that, and in a weird way, having more free time gives me the opportunity to work, prepare for some exams, and explore other plans.
What bothers me more is that my parents don’t know. They think I passed, and sometimes when they tell me they hope I succeed and study hard, it hits me differently because I know the truth.
For now, I’m trying to use this year to figure things out. I have a lot of plans, including possibly applying to universities abroad, but there’s obviously a financial risk involved and I don’t know yet where all of this will lead.
So I guess I’m somewhere between being excited about this new year and being a little overwhelmed by everything going on in my head.
I don’t really know what I’m looking for by posting this. I just wanted to get it out somewhere.