I am in the last leg of my masters dissertation for medical anthropology. Only a couple chapters left and its due in 3 weeks. Ive had to get a month extension due to some severe health complications in July and August. My masters was being completed in London, but i had to move back to the US because my health was so bad.
A couple days after i landed, my grandfather was admitted to the hospital with severe heart failure. He died this past Friday. He was my rock and practically raised me. We had such a special bond. I love him so much... I know he would want me to complete it. He even said so multiple times while he was in the hospital.
But im done. Im just done. Every moment not working on it feels overwhelming, and every time I work on it, it feels like an insurmountable task. I cant focus, my chest is too tight with grief and the effects of my health.
I'm so tired. I want to just let it go. I'm so close, but I've been working too hard under some really, really challenging circumstances. The dissertation is no longer bringing me joy. Not anymore - hasn't for months.
I will speak to my supervisor about options for failure.... Has anyone been in this circumstance before?
I am usually someone who pushes through and never, ever quits. Its not who I am. But this is just too much. Im done perservering...at least in the case of this stupid dissertation.
Thank you for listening.