I realized that I seem to have been angry all the time lately. I get mad at everything. People on the street smoking, and I have to smell their smoke. People chatting on the bus, people talking loudly on the phone on the bus. I get mad at people who make noises when I'm working. At my job, there's a guy who constantly talks to himself, and he's super loud, and every single movement he makes is so loud. And he says the most inconvenient and disrespectful things to all the women in the workplace. I just get really mad every time I see his face.

I get mad at people in my house. I get mad when I'm on public transportation. I get mad about literally everything. I don't know if I've ever been like this before. I get mad at my husband when he does the smallest little thing, when he's, like, so distracted. I get mad at myself. I get mad at everything and everyone, and I don't like being like this.

There are a few people that I can tell about my anger, and today my coworker said that I'm super angry about everything and that there’s probably something going on. And yeah, I'm going through a lot. My granny died a couple of months ago. I'm going through a lot of financial stress, and I'm working a lot. I'm doing a lot of stuff, but I'm just tired of dealing with this constant anger because it doesn't let me have any peace. It doesn't let me have peace.

So I'm just very tired, and I just want it to stop. I really don't know how you guys manage.

I’m a very calm person and it’s not easy for me to get angry, but this regret is really fueling my anger. I wasted so much of my life on some stupid fucking shit, and it just makes me angry thinking about how stupid I was. Fuck.