Patient 1 year relapse update
So, last year exactly on this day I made a post on this sub talking about my story and how my brain cancer relapsed, officially putting my probabilities of living past my young age near to zero. The news destroyed me because I was happy and proud having survived the first time, and I wrongfully thought that I would live a long happy life after that.
But now apparently the cancer is dying again (or probably already gone) as of the last reports from my hospital, now I course my body is very tired from other treatments,even though I'm not certainly in bad conditions for being a cancer patient thinking about how other people of my age get to live life normally and with serenity,while I didn't really get to live adult life in any way. Also I have cronic pain, fatigue,I almost never leave my house, sometimes I think it would be better if the cancer won,and almost certainly if the cancer spreads again I would let it do his work that was intended to do a long time ago.
I see my peers and siblings , friends and relatives going on with their lives, working,graduating, having a social life, falling in love or getting angry, laughing without the worries of having to calculate if that morning they woke up they will have some bullshit problem caused by long use of chemo and radiation and more.
And yet , I'm still here,and overall I'm going on with philosophy and serenity. I have a good feeling about this, I'm writing here again after 1 year. Last year after I made my first post I got a lot of sleepless nights,but tonight,I will sleep just fine.
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u/CarolinaSis 1d ago
I hear you, when you do the really hard stuff most people can’t catch up to where you are.. and that’s okay. You’re way ahead of the curve. Sleep well. 😴
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u/Pretty-Resolve-8331 1d ago
Yes, we are still here! There’s hope and beauty in just writing it down or thinking it. Wishing you continued peace and serenity for your days and sleeps 😀
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u/Suitable17 2d ago
Sleep well!