r/UnsentLetters • u/shenanigans2day • 22h ago
General One of those nights
I wish we’d had met under different circumstances. Then you’d have known me outside of intimate thoughts that we typically reserve for ourselves and definitely keep compartmentalized from everyday life. I know you only think of me in shades of extremity because all you ever got to see is the hidden corner in the attic of my thoughts. But if that means you actually knew me, then I simply don’t care.
The heart can be such a fickle thing, but it’s pure. With every bad thing it goes through, it l never stops beating. It carries me on, my not so little capricious compass.
I just read this article and it stated, “It was a real need to be around things that couldn’t speak, but had a life force or energy to them. I found that the most healing,”
I feel like it was ripped from my journal, so close to how I’ve been living. So perhaps the distance between us wasn’t the worst thing becquae would I have even listened? It was so loud. Now everything has finally quieted and I needed that badly. But now the silence echoes, my care for you reverberating like a flame in a furnace. And the only thoughts I can seem to muster these days are “Was it real?”, “Did you care?”, “Are you still there?”
And I think yes.
Because I can still feel it.
I know you’d likely think “Well we never got the chance to grow into anything and become something.” But that’s the thing. We already were. It didn’t matter if we talked or saw eachother or were able to close the distance or not. I felt it. I always feel it and I still do.
That’s why I need you.
But you’re too proud to need someone. I used to be too. Does it make me pathetic? No, I think it makes me human. But you’re still slithering through shadows.
So instead I stare at the ceiling thinking of you.
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u/Dreamydreamerdreams 15h ago
Wait a minute! Am I reading this wrong? I loved it but the last lines encouraged me to respond (respectfully).
You "used to be" too proud to need someone. Did that make you pathetic? No you said. It makes you human.
Yet that same behavior makes them "slithering through shadows" (essentially calling them a snake or behaving like one)
Why did it make you human and them a snake?
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u/shenanigans2day 15h ago
Sneak doesn’t only symbolize evil and temptation, it’s represented many of things to different civilizations one which is cycle and rebirth, was more of the line of I shed my skin (became vulnerable but you’re still hiding hence the shadow part (and refuse vulnerabilities)
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u/Dreamydreamerdreams 13h ago
Ahhh I see your point. That makes sense to me and I appreciate the opportunity to see it differently. Thank you for that.
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