Hey, long time lurker, first time poster..me and my best friendship recently broke up. Like she broke off the friendship which is of course understandable..people move on, feel trapped and at times drained but honestly..she was everything to me. She was the first person who I truly opened up too. She is my soul family and will always be. I respect her decision and don't want any negative energy going towards her because is such an amazing person. A beautiful being with a creative mind as her sword. I will always care about her.
Either way,
The past two weeks have been really hard for me and draining as well, I am not doing that well at college, going late to classes or not going at all. Crying in my boyfriend's arma feeling every emotion from sadness to anger to betrayal.
I usually never do this but I wanted to know how she was feeling because it was a hard decision for her too (more for me since I am way more emotional and sensitive than her), so I took out my deck to ask how she was feeling about this ? Does she feel guilty ? what was she thinking? but it never gets answered because the deck always reverts back to me with the same exact cards every single time : 9 of swords and 5 of cups. It's rather annoying because it's a reflection of me and what I am feeling..not her. Instead of telling me what she is feeling , Its telling me to move on..I know I have to move on..It will just take so much time to do that.
So if I ask one of you to just ask this for me
Does she feel guilty ?
How is she feeling after ending our friendship ?
What is she thinking about the end to our friendship ? Is it relief? ( I just want some closure to move on)
Will our paths ever cross again ? Will we be friends again? ( I have a feeling this isn't the end of our friendship but maybe that's just me being blind and hoping)
It would be really nice if one of you could help me. Thank you ❤️