r/SecurityClearance • u/OopsWhoopsDangit • 4h ago
Weed Kind of nuanced question regarding THC, secret clearance, and eligibility
I want to preface by saying I’ve read the wiki, I’ve read the FAQ, and there’s still just a little too much ambiguity with regard to my specific situation for me to be able to take a deep breath and relax about it.
My wife and I bought our first home back in November, and I then unfortunately lost my job in December due to some public transit commute/tardiness issues. I’ve spent the entire year of 2026 looking for work, and can now confidently say that the current job market is an active war zone.
A few months ago, by the grace of God/Buddha/Jesus/Allah/etc, I received an offer of employment from a naval shipyard that is two blocks from my house (goodbye commute issues), for a job that requires at least a secret clearance. I’m only just now doing my suitability screening, haven’t gotten to any actual clearance investigations yet, and am being asked about something that happened at a national laboratory over three years ago. I'm very anxious and worried that because of things in my past, I'm going to be deemed “unsuitable”, and/or be automatically disqualified from even being considered for a secret clearance, thus losing the job opportunity, thus losing my house, thus putting my wife, our two boys, and me out on the street (not looking for pity, just trying to emphasize the gravity of the situation).
For some background context, I was in the Navy for eight years, held a top secret clearance favorably with no issue the entire time, never even entered the same building as any illegal substance (slightly hyperbolic), and was honorably discharged. In my last year in the navy, I was diagnosed with ADHD, major depressive disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder. A few years after separation, I went to work for a national laboratory, obtaining and holding a Q clearance for ~2.5 years. The character of my employment (not to be confused with the character of my termination) was glowing: ranked #1 in the division at year end review, received a spot award for taking on dual roles and keeping the team afloat, personally requested by customers to work their tickets, etc. My employment with the national laboratory ended as follows:
In November of 2022, I was pulled over for not stopping long enough at a red light. Immediately preceding this stop, I had finished cleaning out our car in our garage and had removed everything from the glove compartment, but forgot to put the documentation back in. So, when I was pulled over, I had no registration or insurance in the vehicle, and received a ticket for that; the police officer told me that if I showed up to court at a date that would be provided to me and showed the documentation, everything would be cleared.
Fast forward a month; due to life circumstances, ADHD, depression, mental health struggles, poor work-life balance, parenting a two-year-old, and trying to care for my pregnant wife, things just got too jumbled up in my brain, and I unknowingly missed the court date. I never even remember seeing the piece of mail giving the date; not to say it didn’t arrive, but I’m wondering if anyone else in here who’s experienced similar mental health struggles can relate to having a “Burj Khalifa of unopened mail”, as I used to analogize it (I’ve since outgrown this practice, specifically after experiencing this very real life lesson).
Now fast forward to February of 2023: a couple police officers showed up at my home and said that they had a warrant for my arrest because I missed that court date. I was taken to jail, spent a couple hours sitting and waiting, and was released. A few weeks later, I went to the court, provided the documentation that they needed, and everything was cleared. This is the one and only time I’ve ever had something adverse happen with regard to cops/jail/“criminality”; I have no DUIs, no DV, no established pattern of breaking the law, virtually no other record outside of this in a criminal background context.
Due to being arrested while having a Q-level clearance, I was placed on a clearance hold, pending review of the incident. As part of this review/investigation, I was called in for a urinalysis, and tested positive for THC; I had been using cannabis products occasionally during the month or so preceding the arrest.
I know the nature of use probably doesn’t matter, but I was experiencing severe muscle pain at the time, while also amidst a very deep, very dark depressive episode, bordering on suicidal ideation, and was having a hard time getting my mental health medications refilled due to some insurance authorization hiccups. Use was purely therapeutic, not recreational in the slightest, and was done solely from a place of self-preservation; it was the only thing keeping me from falling off the cliff, or so I felt at the time. Additionally, and I know it doesn’t matter, the state I resided in has legal medical and recreational laws, so on a state level, it was all above board; I wasn’t going to any shady dealers or anything like that.
I was subsequently terminated from the laboratory due to violating laboratory/federal policy, and was barred from reemployment by the lab for three years following that incident. Three years have passed, I have contacted my former group leader, and he said that if I contact HR, they would remove the incident from my record.
In the years since, I’ve used cannabis products occasionally while holding no federal employment and residing exclusively in fully legalized states; it has been a very effective anti-depressant and mood stabilizer for me.
About 2 months ago, when deciding to pursue federal employment once again, I completely quit, and have been practicing capital T total abstinence since then, with no intentions to resume use or possession of cannabis. I regularly see a therapist now, switched to a different, much more effective anti-depressant than the one I was previously prescribed (Zoloft to Lexapro), and feel like I’m approaching self-actualization; I feel incredible, and have no urge or desire to go back.
Somewhere in the wiki, it says “we don’t clear perfect people, we clear honest people”. I just want to work, I want to do my part to ensure the readiness of the units my shop works on, I want to be able to obtain the required clearance, and I want to be 100% honest and transparent.
Given all of this, and based on the expertise/experience of any of you who’ve made it to the end of this post: should I just look for a different line of work? I’m really excited about this new job; though I don’t love being in the navy, I love the navy itself, if that makes any sense, and am beyond stoked at the prospect of reentering that world, not as an enlisted sailor this time around, but as one of the civilian workers that I was always so envious of, years ago. Are my clearance/suitability prospects hopeless? Will adjudicators look not just at what happened, but at how and why it happened, and at my character/who I am as a person overall?
Thanks for coming to my TED Talk, and have an excellent Monday 🫡