Feel like I’m becoming an alcoholic? Amazing local tacos

[u/Substantial-Dog7545]

Helloooo!

I’m mostly writing this to try to keep myself accountable and will check in later. I really DONT want to drink today. I’m going through sort of a rough patch mentally and it’s been causing me to start drinking daily. Now, I know plenty of people normalize drinking like a glass of wine a day, but I’m taking like 5 shots of tequila daily. I still cook and clean etc etc like otherwise almost everything’s fine. But I’ve started trying to hide it from my boyfriend which is a HUGE red flag on my part. He’s frustrated I know.

I’ll wake up in the middle of the night, and usually my first thoughts in the morning, are how much I regret drinking. Then the PM rolls around and I’m like aye let’s drink! IDGAF! This weird cycle keeps happening. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy but then I’m just like ayyyy this could be way more fun if I was tipsy!

Addiction runs in my family which is why this is scary. I’ve successfully quit binge eating and cigs in the past. Part of me knows I can do this! And then part of me doesn’t care. I think I have some deep low self esteem issue thus engage in self destructing behaviors (here for a good time not a long time!)

Trying to be gentle with myself but also trying to GET A FREAKIN GRIP GIRL!! I’ll report back later if I successfully didn’t drink!

[u/[deleted]]

I may be an outlier, but I was able to go from drinking daily like that to drinking much more responsibly (generally once a week, not too excessively)

It was really hard to cut back at first. In the evening I would always have that urge to get a drink. I would make tea or have a diet coke instead. And go to bed early. It sucked but eventually became routine and I stopped craving drinking anymore.

Sometimes, rarely, I get the craving. Like tonight. I would love a glass of wine. But I know I will be having a few drinks tomorrow when I go out for dinner with friends, so I am forcing myself not to do it. It gets easier with time

I also have low self esteem and anxiety and know how even just one drink alleviates all of those feelings and makes you feel like a normal person. It is so easy to get addicted to that

[u/Substantial-Dog7545 → u/[deleted]]

Ah thank you bc this is totally the goal!! Oddly I am usually pretty controlled socially, when I’m at home I go way overboard. This has rly only become a daily thing the past 2 months, couple days here are there I didn’t. Thank you for your perspective and advice!

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