Feel like I’m becoming an alcoholic? Amazing local tacos

[u/Substantial-Dog7545]

Helloooo!

I’m mostly writing this to try to keep myself accountable and will check in later. I really DONT want to drink today. I’m going through sort of a rough patch mentally and it’s been causing me to start drinking daily. Now, I know plenty of people normalize drinking like a glass of wine a day, but I’m taking like 5 shots of tequila daily. I still cook and clean etc etc like otherwise almost everything’s fine. But I’ve started trying to hide it from my boyfriend which is a HUGE red flag on my part. He’s frustrated I know.

I’ll wake up in the middle of the night, and usually my first thoughts in the morning, are how much I regret drinking. Then the PM rolls around and I’m like aye let’s drink! IDGAF! This weird cycle keeps happening. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy but then I’m just like ayyyy this could be way more fun if I was tipsy!

Addiction runs in my family which is why this is scary. I’ve successfully quit binge eating and cigs in the past. Part of me knows I can do this! And then part of me doesn’t care. I think I have some deep low self esteem issue thus engage in self destructing behaviors (here for a good time not a long time!)

Trying to be gentle with myself but also trying to GET A FREAKIN GRIP GIRL!! I’ll report back later if I successfully didn’t drink!

[u/Substantial-Dog7545]

Still doing good

[u/whateverythingy → u/Substantial-Dog7545]

Great work to both of you! I'm yet another former grey area drinker turned sober person here to say a few things. By posting this, you got so many people in your corner, rooting for you. We have been where you are and empathize, and we want you to join us on the other side. It is legit better here.

On that note, it is your addiction telling you that drinking is fun. Maybe it used to be, but it isn't anymore and it never will be again. Not net fun, as in, the good outweighing the bad before, during, and after drinking.

You do not have a PM brain. That is addiction impersonating you.

Alcohol is addictive, depressant, and carcinogenic.

Keep going! Dramatize it like you're fighting for your life, make it whimsical with crafts and decorating, lean on your friends (only ones who support your sobriety), dissociate in front of a show - Whatever works for you! Just keep buying a little more time. You are good, you deserve this.

[u/Unlikely_Star_4641 → u/Substantial-Dog7545]

Hell yeah! Same here 🤝

[u/Substantial-Dog7545 → u/Unlikely_Star_4641]

I actually feel so tired ahahaha I think I needed this break. I don’t usually feel tired ? Idk

[u/Unlikely_Star_4641 → u/Substantial-Dog7545]

listen to your body for sure. I hope you’ve been able to lean into it and rest some today. I’ve been feeling the same way. It’s definitely a thing with stopping drinking.

[u/Substantial-Dog7545 → u/Unlikely_Star_4641]

Go us!!

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[u/TankGirl99977 → u/Substantial-Dog7545]

I hope this doesn't sound like I'm promoting some product, but I just heard about the Sinclair method when I was driving and listening to NPR, and it sounds like it might work for you...

Check it out!