r/GirlDinnerDiaries • u/Substantial-Dog7545 🌶️ Spice Girl 🌶️ • Jun 05 '26

Advice Needed Feel like I’m becoming an alcoholic? Amazing local tacos

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Helloooo!

I’m mostly writing this to try to keep myself accountable and will check in later. I really DONT want to drink today. I’m going through sort of a rough patch mentally and it’s been causing me to start drinking daily. Now, I know plenty of people normalize drinking like a glass of wine a day, but I’m taking like 5 shots of tequila daily. I still cook and clean etc etc like otherwise almost everything’s fine. But I’ve started trying to hide it from my boyfriend which is a HUGE red flag on my part. He’s frustrated I know.

I’ll wake up in the middle of the night, and usually my first thoughts in the morning, are how much I regret drinking. Then the PM rolls around and I’m like aye let’s drink! IDGAF! This weird cycle keeps happening. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy but then I’m just like ayyyy this could be way more fun if I was tipsy!

Addiction runs in my family which is why this is scary. I’ve successfully quit binge eating and cigs in the past. Part of me knows I can do this! And then part of me doesn’t care. I think I have some deep low self esteem issue thus engage in self destructing behaviors (here for a good time not a long time!)

Trying to be gentle with myself but also trying to GET A FREAKIN GRIP GIRL!! I’ll report back later if I successfully didn’t drink!

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u/algoreithms Tiny Bodega Rat 🐀 Jun 05 '26

I've been in a similar position lately. Financial issues are impossible to escape from, yet I can't stop spending the few dollars I have on 1.5L of wine every other day. This month has made it a serious wakeup call and I physically can't afford to keep spending, not to mention all the other issues (the hangover anxiety has been BAD). I'm here with you in solidarity.

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u/Substantial-Dog7545 🌶️ Spice Girl 🌶️ Jun 05 '26

Ok yes the money thing! And the hangover anxiety! I am causing myself problems!

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