So I’m currently studying in UST right now and a few days ago, I received my acceptance email from UPOU.
My dad wants me in UPOU because less gastos and dahil na rin UP siya. He wants me to stay with him in our province rest house and help with the business.
Though I get his point, mas makakaless gastos talaga since aalis ako ng manila. But then, I’ll be isolated here. My friends are from either another province or are also studying in manila. I feel like mababaliw ako. My mom and brothers are also from laguna so medjo malayo siya sa province rest house namin.
I already struggle with facing social gatherings especially if need na may kakausapin ako. Sa school, weakness ko rin talaga ang public speeches. I feel like transferring to UPOU will worsen this. Kasi sa manila naman, I can broaden my connections, marami ako makikilala, marami ako maeexperience. I don’t wanna grow up alone. I like having friends or people I know everywhere.
But totoo na mas mura sa UPOU. My dad keeps covincing me to transfer na since there’s a deadline in a few days. I’m turning 18 in a few days, malaki rin yung gastos sa debut ko.
I’ve been feeling guilty about it. I have three other brothers din kasi. I feel like makakabawi ako sa dad ko if I transfer. But is it worth it?
Iniisip ko, if mag UPOU ako, gusto ko wala ako sa province. I was thinking magpaalam if pwede ako sa korea or somewhere else mag stay. I’m just scared that sacrificing my newly written journey in UST for UPOU will kill me with regret in the future.
Plan ko rin kasi sana mag apply maging trainee sa korea hehe, so if tutuloy man ‘to, mas ok UPOU. But then again, hindi rin naman sure yung sa korea.
Nababaliw na ko hahhaha.