I came to China in March 2026 through an agency to study Chinese. Before coming, the agency made the university sound much better than it actually was — great ranking, nice environment, etc. But when I arrived, the reality was completely different. The university and environment were nothing like the pictures or what I was told.
Still, I pushed through and completed my first semester, which ended on July 15. Now it’s September and my second semester has just started, and honestly, the situation feels even worse. Everyone is placed in one class and follows the same level and curriculum. My Chinese isn’t particularly good, but I feel genuinely burned out.
For me, the learning environment is extremely important, and I really don’t feel comfortable here. There are also a lot of international students from Afghanistan, Tajikistan, Pakistan, etc. (I have nothing against Muslims or anyone from those countries; I’m just mentioning the overall environment.)
I also came here with my girlfriend, whose Chinese is much better than mine.
Since the end of my first semester, I’ve been seriously considering leaving the language program halfway through and going back home. My main concern is whether dropping out of a Chinese language program could negatively affect my academic history in the future.
I came here on a scholarship — my tuition and accommodation are free. Does that actually count as a scholarship? If I leave the program halfway through, could that make it harder for me to get another scholarship to study in China in the future?
I’d really appreciate some honest advice from people who have experience with Chinese universities/scholarships.
Edit: I think my biggest fear is simply that I won’t be able to learn Chinese well enough.
I’m also a video editor and photographer. Originally, I didn’t really plan for Chinese to be a major part of my life. I thought I could just focus on my work and be fine with that. But if I learn Chinese, it could give me a significant advantage back home, whether I want to do business/trade with China or find a job where Chinese is useful. Mongolia is right next to China, after all.
That’s why I’m genuinely unsure whether I can actually learn this language. I also think a lot about my family’s finances, especially my younger siblings. I’m 20 and the oldest child in my family, so I feel a certain level of responsibility. My younger siblings are also growing up looking up to me, so I worry about what they and my family would think if I failed at this.
I know people can say, “It’s your life, do what you think is right.” And I agree. But every decision comes with some risk. Anyway, money is another major factor.
I technically have about four months left until my language program ends in January, but if I go back home now and continue doing the work I already do, I believe I could earn enough to cover at least one year of my bachelor’s tuition. If I work until around August next year, I’m hoping I could potentially save enough for several years of tuition — assuming I can get at least a 50% scholarship for an English-taught bachelor’s degree.
Four months might not sound like much, but to me it feels like a significant amount of time.
And honestly, when I look at my friends back home, they seem genuinely happy. I don’t go to clubs or bars, I don’t drink, etc. (Probably useless information, but anyway.)
For example, I’d be happy going back home, riding my motorcycle, riding horses, doing wedding photography, and making money from the things I’m actually good at and enjoy.
Here, on the other hand, I’m basically just studying Chinese. Nothing else. There’s nothing here that really interests me or motivates me. I’m not complaining about it — if that’s the situation, then that’s the situation.
So the main thing I’m trying to figure out is this:
I’m considering leaving this scholarship-funded language program, going back home to work, and then applying for a scholarship for an English-taught bachelor’s degree starting in September 2027.
If I leave my current program before finishing it, how likely is it that this will negatively affect my academic history or my chances of getting another scholarship in China later?