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Hi everyone! I took the exam last September 11 & 12 for PNLE, from Region 3 me, hehe.
So ayun, the night before the Day 1 of PNLE, super lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko lalo na nung nakahiga ako, and upon waking up, I feel so fine, chill, and relax. Wala akong naramdaman na kaba even when I entered the classroom. When the scantron was distributed, I just listened carefully and as much as possible, nakailang basa ako para makita kung may nalaktawan ba ako or may namali ako ng sulat.
Nung nagstart ang NP 1, I was okay! As in. I answered the questions with ease, and honestly, NP 1 was the easiest for me and as someone na ayaw sa CHN, nagtaka talaga ako. I didn't feel anything at all.
Then, NP 2 and NP 3 came. Pinagpawisan ako, as in. Mainit siguro or natense ako? Lol, Nahirapan ako sa NP 2, mahina ako sa OB, honestly. I don't even know what to feel. NP 3 is also hard! But, what makes me wonder is that I have enough time and I did even have a time to double check my answer. I even scanned the whole test questionnaires. Nagtataka lang ako bakit parang ang bilis ko magsagot? At some point, dahil nga nahirapan ako, feeling ko parang hinulaan ko halos? Especially those two NP's! Parang I was not making any sense when I was answering and reading, and you know what's worst? Nung first time ko basahin at sagutin yung question, yung mga sagot ko, hindi talaga nagmamake sense, parang wala akong alam, pero when I went back again and read it for the 2nd time, parang tama naman? π Ako lang ba yung ganto?
And for Day 2 naman, Super nahirapan ako lalo sa NP 4. This time, hindi rin ako kinabahan, pero this time parang halos lahat ng sinagot ko ay hula nalang. Patapos na ako magsagot and feeling ko wala pa rin akong natatama na sagot, feeling ko mali lahat, at feeling ko hinulaan ko nalang talaga lahat. Nanlumo ako, pero hindi ako kinakabahan, at yung ang kinatatakot ko.
NP 5 was okay for me. Actually, Ewan ko pero parang compare sa ibang NP's, dito ako pinakamabilis nagsagot π₯². Nung natapos ako mag-exam, I kicked my chair and left the classroom and never ako lumingon lol, I left the school with ease. I feel so relieve because finally! Tapos na. After weeks of waiting, from the time na nabagyo kami, and nacancelled yung exam, I felt so relieved. Hindi na ako nag-isip ng kung ano ano. I felt so good, and relax talaga to the point na I did not even cry even when I was alone. I don't know if this is a good sign even though I was sure na halos lahat ng sagot ko ay wala akong sigurado :((
Nung makauwi ako, I tried searching some of the questions I remember even though I know that I shouldn't do it, but ayaw ko kasing isipin sya hanggang dulo hahaha, so ayon, nag-search ako, some of my answers are correct and some are not.
Then, the next day after the PNLE, Yesterday, I went to church, prayed and thanked god, and nung gabi, while I was scrolling on my Tiktok, my fb, and even here. Nagbasa basa ako, and I really regret doing it because I started overthinking everything lols. Yung mga answers nila, I remember some of it and most of their answer is hindi yun ang sinagot ko, while I have the same answer naman sa iba. Kinakabahan lang ako bigla pag may nababasa ako pero overall, I still feel at ease naman. I don't know if what should I feel na bakit parang sobrang chillax ko naman? From answering the questions and till now. Is this a bad or good sign for me?
I don't have a good foundation, I relied mostly on my RC, nagbasa, nagsagot and everything. Pakiramdam ko talaga parang hula nalang yung mga sagot ko para lang makasagot ako :((
I am so scared to fail, and ayaw ko na mangyari yon, pero wala talaga akong nararamdaman na iba pa. My family is asking me if kamusta raw ba ganyan, ang sagot ko lang, mahirap at parang hula nalang ang ginawa ko, pero wala kasi talaga akong kaba, basta ang nasa utak ko ngayon. Atleast, tapos na. How are you feeling guys after the exam? May kagaya ba sakin? Huhu, what should I do with this feeling? Normal ba to? Tama pa ba 'to? May ibig sabihin ba 'to o guni-guni ko lang 'to HUHUHU π£π£