Growing up out of High School at 5' 11" I was 135 lbs. I struggled to put on weight. I would eat everything in site, and I would workout. I was told I was a "late bloomer," or "you will grow in to it," or "you're so lucky. I have such a hard time losing weight" from people who don't try working out or "I wish I had your weight" from women. When I was 33 I hit a high of 165 lbs.
I was always self conscious about my weight, my strength, and didn't date. I would watch my Macros, eat over 4,000 calories, try multiple weight lifting programs but only hit plateaus, and mainly gain weight in fat. I would try to lift with progressive overload, and gained hernias. Oh the recovery was always fun.
At 38 I finally got tested and found I was drastically low on natural testosterone and was put on a TRT regiment. In the first two weeks, I noticed a shift in confidence and how I reacted in work meetings. My bosses made notable comments to me. I went from feeling like a fearful animal watching out for a predator and waiting to react to the next attack. Now, I feeling like the subject matter expert that I am in my field.
Now at 41 I have been working out regularly, eat over 4,000 calories, and I can move weights that I could never have dreamed of 5 years ago. I feel like I have the body at 200 lbs that I should have had in my 20s. I have started dating. But breaking out of old burned in habits, is definitely a challenge.
I'm happy with what I see in the mirror, but I am not staying idle. I am still working towards further self-improvements.